In the Midst of Loneliness

"I am okey." I told myself.
And all along I thought I really was.
I thought I have a happy life.
I felt happiness when
I travel,
I shop,
I eat out,
I read books,
And when I'm teaching.
I'm happy when people show
appreciation with my works,
and my achievements.
I thought those were good enough.

But most days I felt the loneliness
and emptiness in my heart.
When I'm alone,
I thought of so many things,
Frustrations, failures & depressions
Sometimes I hid my loneliness
in the mask of laughter.
And it's very hard to pretend.
No one knows I felt that way,
Even my family and friends.
I just bear in mind that,
"It's okey not to be okey."
 
I am lonely. I am.
Sometimes I feel I have
No shoulder to cry on,
No one to run to when I need
a helping hand,
No one to share with
 the good books I read,
nor a nice movie I have watched.
and even the achievements I got.
No one to talk to with
what's happening around.
I just realized what a lonely life I have.
And it's killing me.

And in the midst of all of these,
when I thought I had fallen down,
I run & turn to God.
I talk and cry to Him,
and ask some help and guidance.
And He never fails me.
He is always there when
I needed Him the most.
I know He loves me.
and will never leave me..

I love you Lord, Thank You.
May the love
You're always giving me
will make me understand many things.
To move forward and go on with my life,
and to continue this journey
despite the loneliness & failures.
Thank You
for making me a strong person
and for giving me
this beautiful LIFE!


---Me
9.13.13 11:17pm
in my room


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